!!!!......!!!!!

I felt like a hero and you are my heroine.
 You showed that is my greatest sin!!!

 P.S. : this is not intended to any one..... 

Lonely!!!

                  Dictionary says.....

  Lonely - sad because one has no friends or companions

But dat is not true....

Lonely is not when u dont hav people around u....

It is when u hav thousands of friends nd wellwishers around u 

But no one understands U,

Ur feelings, Ur thoughts, Ur emotions.

If you are wid ur frnds ....

having fun..... and njoing wid dem.... 

laughing for the jokes dey cracked... 

but you are feeling very low inside....

Den nothing's gonna make U better if dey notice ur smile,

But not ur emotions....

Loneliness is when U are depressed 

And no one understands U and bossts U up....

Loneliness is when U feel weak,

But there is no one to giv U confidence....

It is when u dont have people who knows what u are...

When U dnt have people who dont understand what u meant in ur words...

Loneliness is not when u dont have people around you,

It is when u dont feel u have some for u...

Luckiest is not the one who gets loved by some one else...

It is when u have atleast one who understands U& Ur feelings....

    

             

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end of my teenage.....

today is my 20th bday...

which means my teenage was completed few hrs ago.....

my teenage taught me a hell lot things which transformed me from a innocent kid to what iam now....

gud or bad... it taught me a lot....

over all these years i got to know what life is all about.... what what do we face in life....

its like a roller coaster journey...... 

ive seen all the shades of life.....

life was elegant at times... nd stricken on the other hand....

i was completely changed in attitude....

there is a drastic change....

i used to be reserved.... shy... etc......

bt nw im totally changed..... im more responsible.... talktive.... open... 

all the credit goes to my parents, school , my frnds nd kiran....

my school taught me to be disciplined nd respect elders nd others......

after school.... it was a sudden freedom .... a whole new environment..... 

internet... chattin ... messengers were risin at dat time.....

we used to spend our free time in the cafe opposite to our colg....

spendin time wid frnd... havin fun.... njoyin in study hours.... it was wonderful....

the best i can say in my teenage is abt a special person....

a special person who gave me the love of my life......

it wasnt like all other stories... it is unique... one of its kind.....

my engineering has made all the confusions clear..... 

now i know what i want in my life... what i am.... what kind of people are around me.....

im proud to say dat i hav friends that care for me... nd i can say forsure that they will stand out for me.. when i need dem..... 

the most dejected incident i came through is wen i saw my frnds parents died.... 

infact they were killed..... 

their poverty killed dem.... 

money is the key to evry thing... it gives u life... it gets u frnds... nd respect....

it can do nything...

but.... no matter how much u hav..... it doesnt giv the satisfaction nd happiness dat ur frnds nd family giv u......

u may find this post silly nd ironic..... i jst wanted to preserve my memories of my teenage... so i posted dis one....

i knw dis post didnt go well... bt dis is wat i cn say for nw....

u can say this is my tribute for my teenage.... 

dark nights....!!!

Days pass by some how

But nights now are a wagon of pain

Injuries may heal with time

But marks will always remain

Restless on my comfortable bed

I toss and turn and try to sleep

But thoughts are bulking my head

And have formed a huge heap

The past is flashing its scorching light beams

Tearing me apart , breaking me at the seams

the darkness of my life is more visible in the dark

And now i am trying to give it a voice , trying to speak my heart

Disappointment

We meet many people nd many new things in our life..... some stay with us till for long nd some leave us alone....
but one which stays wid us till we leave this word is disappoinement...
an unwanted friend no matter how much we avoid it still wants us...

even though very special people in ur life may leave u at some point of time.. but not this...

u dnt hav all ur world in all occassions...
but it meets u in every occasion...
form ur childhood to the moment u close ur eyes for ever...

when u ask ur dad something nd he doesnt get u....

when u aim for good grades... nd u fail to get...

when u play hard nd u end up loosing...

when u plan to do something special but u mess it up...

when u dream to study somewhere nd u get to do it somewhere else...

when u xpress ur love on someone nd they recjt it...

when u believe ur special to some one nd ur proven wrong...


U can never escape from disappointments. The only thing others would tell you is that, keep on trying, it's not end of everything and all the encouragement words. It'll somehow lift the burden off u , however deep down inside u, NO u can't take it. It's just too painful.
U would always say "well it's easy for some people to say, give advise".